Frustration!!! Frustrated!!!


My bride hunt has always ended in a controversy and the latest one happened this sunday… This reason was enough for my Granny who is my well-wisher… But her emotional attachment on me is making me get frustrated… So, what was the whole issue about??

  • A month back I went to see a Girl…
  • Had to turn down the proposal owing to several reasons…
  • The girl emailed me asking for a meet-up & to know the reason…
  • As a gesture I agreed & last week I pinged her when I was in Bangalore…
  • Then Girl’s mother called up my aunt & asked why am I meeting the girl after dropping the proposal…
This whole episode has made people think that I planned a Bangalore trip to meet this Girl… Then my grand mother came today to convince me to agree to this marriage… Then it was 3 -4 hours of convincing, debate, argument, emotional blackmail etc… This whole 3 – 4 hours has created a situation of making me guilty… Got really frustrated because;
  • Mediocre thinking is being infused…
  • Independent decision making is always questioned & I’m asked to report each and every action…
  • Freedom of speech is tampered… I’m taught what to talk to the girl  😦
  • Practical decisions are shown as “Making SIN”…
As a person who preaches liberation, free speech, fight for right… I got frustrated because of the mediocre thinking of my loved ones & more frustrating when they try to infuse it on me… But I feel more provoked because I love my granny & parents that much that they are putting me in a situation where I’m hurting there feeling…
Let me prey to get a quick remedy to this situation…

Vibes or Co-incedence


Yesterday I was talking about my perception about marriage & why I’m delaying my marriage… For long there has never been any pressure from my parents… But today when I got up it was my father who came to me asking if I could spend some time with him… Immediately I thought it was going to be about my marriage… I’ve never seen him so dull in my life & his points were;

  • I’m getting aged and choices were getting dim…
  • They have a responsibility to full-fill…
  • He believes that a women is needed in a man’s life to be disciplined…

This was one emotional issues I’ve to handle… I know my parents have their own point of view and they want to full-fill their responsibility… But I’ve my point of view which I know they are not going to buy it…

Still I don’t know if i’m prepared for a marriage… I’m not sure if I can full-fill the responsibility as a husband or a father as I’m so irresponsible… Also I enjoy being irresponsible and still not having the feel of getting married…

Now it is time to make a call if I must fall for my parents emotions or live the life I like…