I Travelled for Two Days—and Met My Old Self Again


For the past two days, I have been travelling and doing many crazy things. The journey has been hectic. Several things have not gone according to plan. Normally, such situations should have made me tense.

But strangely, I have not felt much stress or pressure.

Instead, I have felt active, alert and alive.

It reminded me of how my life used to be before I had children. Back then, there were challenges too. Things went wrong, plans changed and uncertainty was always present. But I kept moving. I made decisions, found solutions and continued with the day.

I did not carry every challenge inside my head.

During this journey, I suddenly met that version of myself again.

The challenges had not disappeared. The difference was that I was moving through them. Every situation required an immediate action—a phone call, a decision, a change of route or a new plan. My mind had something real to work on.

At home, the pressure feels different.

Parenting comes with constant responsibility. There are expectations, repeated discussions and very little mental space. Pressure between husband and wife over parenting can make even an ordinary day feel heavy. The same subjects return repeatedly, but they do not always have an immediate solution.

When I cannot act, my mind starts thinking.

Then it thinks about the thinking.

Slowly, one concern becomes a loop, and the loop follows me throughout the day.

Travel seems to interrupt that pattern. It gives me movement, novelty and the freedom to make small decisions on my own. My attention shifts from what might happen to what is happening in front of me.

Perhaps this is why I feel lighter even when the journey itself is difficult.

This experience has made me realise something important:

I may not be tired of responsibility. I may be tired of having responsibility without enough freedom, movement or recovery.

That does not mean my family is the source of my unhappiness. It means I may have allowed one part of my identity—the independent, curious and adventurous part—to become too small.

Maybe I do not need to escape from my present life.

Maybe I need to bring some of my travelling self back into it.

A few hours alone. A drive without an agenda. Working from a different place. Meeting someone. Exploring something unfamiliar. Or simply having time during which I am not continuously on duty.

These two days have reminded me that the old version of me has not disappeared.

He was not gone.

He was only waiting for some space to move again.

838 Kilometres, Two Drivers and a Day That Began at 4 AM


What a day!

It began at 4 in the morning. Ironically, when I know that I must wake up very early, I become so conscious about it that I hardly sleep. That night was no different. I kept checking the time, waiting for the alarm, and eventually began the journey without having slept.

Our first destination was Thrissur. We had to drop my friend’s wife at her office before turning back towards Chennai. By the time we reached Thrissur, a large part of the morning had already passed—but the longest part of the journey was still ahead of us.

Thrissur to Chennai.

Looking at that distance on the map can make anyone feel tired even before starting. But once we were on the road, we stopped thinking about the entire distance. We simply handled it one stretch at a time.

There were two of us to drive. When one person began to feel tired, the other took over. The person resting would take a short power nap and return refreshed enough for the next stretch. We did not treat the journey as one continuous race. Fuel refills, tea, snacks and proper food breaks naturally divided it into smaller and more manageable parts.

A bakery stop in the morning. Lunch along the highway. Another vegetarian food break in the afternoon. A few minutes outside the car, some conversation, and then back on the road.

Kilometres kept disappearing behind us.

The surprising part was that we did not feel the full tiredness while driving. Perhaps it was because we kept changing drivers. Perhaps it was the power naps, the breaks, the food or the constantly changing scenery. More than anything, I think the mind remained active because there was always a smaller target ahead—the next town, the next stop or the next driver change.

By the time we reached Chennai, the timeline showed 838 kilometres and nearly 14 hours on the road. We had started at 4:02 AM and arrived at 7:18 PM.

Only after reaching the destination did the scale of the day begin to sink in.

This was my first crazy long-distance drive after six years. It reminded me that some journeys appear exhausting when viewed as one enormous distance. But when shared between two people—and divided by rest, food, conversation and smaller milestones—the same journey becomes an experience.

The tiredness eventually catches up with the body. But the road leaves the mind with a story.

And this was certainly a day worth recording.

When Everything Feels Delayed


For the last couple of days, I have been feeling anxious. It is difficult to point to one thing and say, “This is the reason.” There are several things, and they all seem to be waiting at the same time.

A pursuit gets delayed. Then it gets delayed again. Something I thought would be easy to finish develops a complication. I spend time trying to sort it out, only to find that the situation has turned against me.

Even a victory can feel strange when it does not come on the terms I wanted. I know I should be pleased that it ended, but part of my mind is still going over how it happened.

Meanwhile, there are other things I want to do. I think about starting one, then remember another that needs attention. Should I finish what is already pending? Deal with what feels urgent? Or make time for something I have wanted to build for a long time? I keep moving between these questions without settling on an answer.

That is the part of anxiety I find hardest to explain. From outside, it may look as though nothing is happening. Inside, I am constantly thinking, weighing, anticipating and preparing to react. A delay in one matter starts affecting how I approach everything else.

I want to get back to work with a clear mind. Right now, even deciding where to begin feels like another unfinished task.

The Madras I Never Saw: When Lily Pond Was Still Alive


I have always considered myself a Madras guy, not a Chennai guy.

Lily Pond in the old People’s Park.

For me, Madras is an emotion. Chennai is just a place.

And this photograph explains that emotion better than I can.

This is Lily Pond in the old People’s Park. Look at the size of the water body, the huge trees around it, the walkway along the water and the people spending their time there.

It is difficult to believe that this was once the landscape around what we now know as the crowded Park Town–Central area.

People’s Park itself was once a beautiful recreational space of Madras—with gardens, ponds, walkways, boating and the old Madras zoo. The larger area included Lily Pond, Moore Market, the zoo, My Lady’s Garden and other public spaces.

I never saw this Madras

I was born in 1980. When Moore Market burned in 1985, I was just five.

So I cannot claim nostalgia from memory. I have never seen Lily Pond with my own eyes.

But when I found this old photograph in an archive, it genuinely pained me.

I kept looking at the water, the trees and the people and wondering how such a beautiful, large water body could simply disappear from the city.

For my own satisfaction, I added colour to the old photograph—to the pond, trees and people. Not to change history, but simply to imagine for a moment how alive this place must have looked.

And strangely, adding colour made the loss feel even greater.

The pond disappeared. The name survived.

After the old Moore Market was destroyed by fire in 1985, Lily Pond was eventually reclaimed as part of the effort to accommodate displaced traders. Historical accounts describe the pond being filled and the Lily Pond/Allikulam commercial complex being developed on the reclaimed land.

There is something painfully ironic about it today.

A large water body was filled in a city that would later struggle repeatedly with water.

And yet, Madras left us a little reminder.

Alli Kulam.

Alli — Lily.
Kulam — Pond.

We managed to erase the water, but somehow the name survived.

Cities have to grow. Roads, railways and buildings have to come. But sometimes development happens so gradually that we don’t realise what we have lost until decades later, when an old photograph suddenly appears before us.

I never walked beside Lily Pond.
I never sat under those trees.
I never saw people boating there.

Yet looking at this photograph, I miss it.

Maybe that is why I continue to call myself a Madras guy.

Chennai is the city I live in.

Madras is the city I feel.

AI Stole My Cheese. And It May Steal It Again in Six Months.


I have been in technology and business for 26 years.

I started when creating a website itself was a skill. Then tools simplified it. PHP changed development. Frameworks reduced development time. Open source changed how we built products. Then came cloud, SaaS and APIs.

Every few years, somebody moved my cheese.

But AI feels different.

AI didn’t just steal my cheese. It seems capable of stealing the next cheese before I even decide where to keep it.

I have been using AI from its early days and watched it move from generic answers to usable content, code, reasoning and now agents that can actually perform tasks.

And I can clearly see gaps in today’s agents.

They struggle with some workflows. They need supervision. Enterprise integrations are messy. Exceptions confuse them.

The entrepreneur in me immediately thinks: “There is a business here.”

Then another voice asks:

“Will this problem still exist six months from now?”

That is something I have never experienced at this intensity in my 26 years of business.

Everyone Is Asking the Same Question

Talk to employees: Will my job survive?

Talk to entrepreneurs: What should I build?

Talk to software companies: What happens when AI can build this itself?

There are plenty of answers—learn AI, reskill, build agents, become AI-first.

But frankly, much of it still feels like writing in the air.

Nobody really knows where the capability line will be two years from now.

That made me realise I may have been asking the wrong question.

Instead of:

“What can I build that AI cannot replace?”

Maybe I should ask:

“What becomes more valuable as AI becomes more capable?”

Don’t Build Around AI’s Weakness

If I build a business around something AI cannot do today, my business depends on AI remaining bad at it.

That is a dangerous moat.

But if I own the customer problem—the workflow, integrations, domain knowledge, exceptions, relationships and operating process—AI becoming better can actually make my business better.

My cost of solving the problem comes down.

That completely changes the equation.

Don’t make AI’s limitation your moat. Make AI’s improvement your leverage.

Maybe I Was Trying to Plant the Wrong Thing

For years, I wanted to build something that lasts.

Something I could plant today and still see standing twenty years later.

AI made me wonder whether that is possible anymore.

Then my own journey gave me an answer.

HTML changed. Development tools changed. PHP changed. Frameworks changed. Infrastructure changed. Cloud changed things again. Now AI is changing almost everything.

But businesses still have customers.

Buildings still need managing. Companies still need moving data between systems. Money still needs collecting. People still need problems solved.

And suddenly it became obvious:

The problem was the tree. Technology was only its leaves.

Leaves are supposed to change.

What Do I Plant Now?

I don’t know where AI will be five years from now.

I don’t think anybody really does.

But I don’t need to find something AI will never change.

I need to find a problem worth owning even if the way we solve it changes five times.

A temporary AI gap might last six months.

Use it.

It brings customers. Customers bring workflows. Workflows bring knowledge. Knowledge creates systems, relationships, distribution and trust.

Those may survive the next model release.

Maybe creating a legacy in the AI era isn’t about building something that never changes.

Maybe it is about building something that knows how to change without losing the problem it exists to solve.

After 26 years of technology repeatedly moving my cheese, perhaps that is the lesson:

AI will keep moving my cheese. My job is not to guard the cheese. It is to own the dairy.

The Night I Finally Took My Sleep Test


I had wanted to take a sleep test for a long time. Two months ago, I enquired at the hospital and asked for a slot. They had been following up with me since then, but I kept putting it off.

Yesterday, they called and said a slot was available that very night. I agreed before I could delay it again.

I went to the hospital alone. I did not take an attender because they said one was not needed. The test was scheduled from 10 PM to 4 AM.

They attached wires to my hand and a couple to my forehead. Then they asked me to sleep. It sounded simple enough, but I have always found it difficult to sleep in a new place. With the wires attached and the thought of being tested, it took me a long time to settle down.

I think I slept for only two or three hours. I woke up about an hour before the test ended and could not get back to sleep. Soon it was 4 AM, and the night I had waited two months for was over.

Now I am waiting for the report. I am glad I finally went, but I keep wondering what it will show. That night was quite different from how I normally sleep at home. Will a few hours of sleep be enough? Will the result reflect my usual nights?

I suppose those questions will have to wait until the report arrives. For now, at least, I have taken the test I had been meaning to take for so long.

When the Mind Gets Trapped in a Loop


There are periods in life when several problems arrive together—legal cases, financial pressure, work deadlines, family responsibilities and decisions that cannot be postponed.

The mind naturally tries to solve them. But when too many matters remain unresolved, the mind can become trapped in multiple loops.

One loop replays a past conversation.
Another calculates the financial risk.
A third imagines everything that could go wrong.
A fourth keeps asking, “What should I do next?”

Before one loop closes, another begins.

We may believe we are seriously working on our problems because the mind remains occupied from morning until night. But not all thinking is productive.

Sometimes, it is rumination.

Rumination is a mental loop in which we repeatedly think about the same problem, fear or past event without reaching a conclusion, making a decision or taking useful action.

“Productive thinking moves towards an answer. Rumination repeats the question.”

In the beginning, this may appear harmless. We may even believe that remaining under constant pressure will make us stronger and better prepared. But a mind running too many loops does not keep becoming stronger. It gradually becomes overloaded.

Concentration is usually the first casualty. Work that once felt manageable begins to demand more effort. We read something without absorbing it. We start one task, another loop opens, and we lose the thread of what we were doing.

Decision-making also suffers. Some decisions are delayed because the mind keeps testing every possible outcome. Others are made impulsively—not because we are convinced, but because making any decision provides temporary relief from the loop.

Forgetfulness and avoidable mistakes begin to appear. Switching between tasks becomes difficult. Creativity declines because the mind has no free space to explore new ideas. Strategic thinking becomes almost impossible when every open loop feels urgent.

“A crowded mind treats every open loop as an emergency.”

Procrastination follows. It is easily mistaken for laziness, but sometimes it is mental exhaustion. When the mind is already running ten loops in the background, even a simple task can feel heavy.

The effects do not remain confined to work. Irritability increases. Patience becomes shorter. Sleep is disturbed because the body lies down while the loops continue—arguing, calculating, regretting and predicting.

Poor sleep then creates more fatigue, weaker concentration and greater emotional sensitivity the following day. When this continues for a long time, sustained stress may also contribute to physical problems, including elevated blood pressure.

The most deceptive part of rumination is that it creates the feeling of continuous work.

At the end of the day, we are exhausted. Yet, when we look back, surprisingly little has been completed.

“The mind has been running all day, but it has been running in a loop.”

The solution is not to stop caring or avoid difficult problems. It is to close, pause or organise the loops.

Write each concern down. Decide whether it needs immediate action, a future decision, more information or simply patience. Identify the smallest next step and then return to the work in front of you.

Some loops cannot be closed immediately. A court case may take time. Money may not arrive today. Another person may need to respond. In such situations, repeatedly running the loop does not create a faster outcome—it only consumes more energy.

Pressure can sometimes improve performance, but only when it is limited, meaningful and followed by recovery. Continuous pressure without clarity does not make us stronger. It slowly consumes the concentration, judgment and energy required to overcome the problem.

“Every problem deserves attention. It does not deserve to run as a permanent loop in the mind.”

Sixteen Years Later, Varkala Was Still Waiting


Varkala had been waiting for us for almost two years.

Every time I planned to take the family there, something happened. The trip got cancelled, the destination changed, or life simply came in between.

This long weekend was no different.

12 September 2026 — Varkala wasn’t the plan

With the Ganesh Chaturthi long weekend, I originally planned Thrissur. We would stay at my friend’s place and cover Thrissur, Guruvayur, Cherai Beach and a few places around.

Then my friend’s plans changed at the last minute. So did ours.

Varkala.

A destination that had survived almost two years of cancelled plans suddenly became our destination with hardly any planning. And strangely, that probably made the trip better.

Madurai to Varkala

On Saturday, 12 September, the four of us left home around 8 AM.

The long-weekend crowd hit us immediately. Temple City, where we stopped for breakfast, was packed. Hotels everywhere seemed full, breakfast itself became an exercise, but eventually we managed.

After that came a drive that was new to me. I had been to Tenkasi a few times, but hadn’t driven this particular route to Kerala before. So it was Google Maps, cautious driving and casual conversations with my wife while the kilometres disappeared.

By afternoon, we were in Varkala.

Back after sixteen years

This wasn’t my first Varkala trip. I first visited in 2010 and was completely sold on the place. I always thought I would return soon.

“Soon” took 16 years.

A lot had changed. The crowds were bigger. B&Bs, homestays and resorts had multiplied. Varkala was certainly busier than the place stored in my memory.

But the cliff, the sea and that unmistakable Varkala vibe were still there.

For my wife and kids, everything was new. For me, it felt like reopening an old bookmark.

48 hours around water

The kids quickly established the theme for the holiday: water.

If they weren’t at the beach, they were in the swimming pool at Paddle Cult. If they weren’t in the pool, they wanted to go back to the sea.

Our first evening was simple—playing at the beach followed by dinner at Darjeeling Cafe. There was live music, pizza for the kids and a lovely atmosphere.

After the long drive, everyone else was exhausted. I somehow still caught the vibe.

13 September 2026 — The best part wasn’t at the beach

Sunday’s mangrove boat trip became the highlight.

We sailed through the backwaters and narrow mangrove tunnels. Somewhere along the way, the children appointed themselves the official photographers of the trip.

There was even a drone shoot in the middle of the backwaters.

We stopped for refreshments—tender coconut water and fresh juice sold from a boat—and then came the part the kids were waiting for.

Jumping into the backwaters for a swim.

From that point, nobody was interested in getting out of the water.

It was one of those outings where nothing extraordinary needs to happen. Everybody is simply enjoying themselves at the same time. That itself becomes the memory.

Rice meals, cliffs and no timetable

Lunch was at Hotel Suprabhatham, an old vegetarian hotel in Varkala that had been recommended to us. We were lucky enough to get Kerala rice meals.

All four of us enjoyed it. And there was an unexpected holiday achievement too—despite eating outside throughout the trip, none of us had that usual heavy, indigestion feeling.

The rest of Varkala was deliberately unambitious.

Cliff cafés. Shopping. Beach views. Photographs. Walking around. Sitting somewhere because we liked the view.

The cliff strip was absolutely vibing.

Sometimes the best itinerary is not having much of one.

14 September 2026 — “I don’t want to go home.”

By Monday morning, when it was time to leave, my son had a serious objection.

He didn’t want to come home.

For almost 48 hours, the kids had moved between the sea, backwaters and swimming pool. Even when we were at Paddle Cult, getting them away from the pool was a task.

Our stay there also worked perfectly for us—comfortable, convenient and nothing to complain about.

We left Varkala around noon. On the return journey, my wife squeezed in some roadside terracotta shopping. We stopped at Hotel Hariharan in Shenkottai for lunch and later at Temple City Alampatti for snacks and coffee before finally reaching Madurai.

The holiday was over.

Perhaps that’s what a good vacation is

The kids called it their best vacation.

My wife said she finally slept well and managed to unwind from work.

And I returned to one of my favourite places after sixteen years.

No elaborate sightseeing checklist. No race to cover ten tourist attractions. No great plan, actually—the original destination wasn’t even Varkala.

Just four of us, a long drive, a cliff, cafés, the sea, mangroves, swimming, good food and two children who didn’t want the holiday to end.

Sometimes that’s enough to know a vacation worked.

18 Years. And Then, Silence.


Eighteen years is a long time to carry a case you always believed should never have existed.

People change in eighteen years. Businesses rise and fall. Children are born and grow up. Friendships disappear. Priorities change.

But somewhere in the background of my life, one thing stubbornly remained.

A criminal case.

It began with my then business partner and allegations that I maintained were false from the very beginning. What followed was something I never imagined would consume almost two decades of my life.

I could have compromised early.

I could have told myself, Why fight? Finish it somehow and move on.

But something inside me refused.

The Weight of an Allegation

A case isn’t merely a case number.

When your name is accused of something you know you didn’t do, it travels with you.

There is anger. There is humiliation. There are questions from people. There are moments when you wonder whether truth actually matters when somebody else has the machinery to keep an allegation alive.

And then there is the waiting.

One year became five.

Five became ten.

Ten became fifteen.

Eventually, I stopped counting.

Life had to continue. I built businesses. I failed at things. I succeeded at others. I became a husband and a father. I fought completely different battles.

Yet this unfinished chapter remained somewhere behind me.

What 18 Years Taught Me

The younger version of me wanted to win.

The older version of me wanted the truth to survive long enough to be tested.

That difference probably explains how these eighteen years changed me.

I learnt that courage isn’t always dramatic.

Sometimes courage is simply showing up again.

And again.

And again.

Even when nothing appears to be moving.

Perseverance isn’t believing that tomorrow everything will magically become better. It is having the stomach to accept that tomorrow may look exactly like today—and still refusing to surrender.

There were moments of anger.

There were moments of exhaustion.

But there was always one belief:

If an allegation is true, there must ultimately be something underneath it that can withstand scrutiny.

So I waited for that scrutiny.

Then Something Changed

After all those years, the questions became very simple.

Where were the supporting documents?

Where was the basic material necessary to substantiate what had been alleged?

For around eighteen months, as these questions persisted, the answers did not materialise.

And during the final hearings, the scrutiny became harder.

Suddenly an eighteen-year-old battle was approaching something I had almost forgotten how to imagine:

an ending.

Eventually, my former partner agreed to a compromise and the case was closed.

Just like that.

A battle that had followed me through a substantial portion of my adult life ended in a few final sittings.

Victory Didn’t Feel Like I Imagined

I always imagined that if this day came, I would celebrate loudly.

Perhaps call everyone who knew the story.

Perhaps remind people what had been said about me.

Perhaps tell the world:

“I told you so.”

Strangely, when it finally happened, what I felt most wasn’t excitement.

It was relief.

A very deep, quiet relief.

Because after eighteen years, I realised that victory wasn’t watching another person lose.

Victory was discovering that I had not allowed the fight to turn me into the person I was fighting.

They could give me a case.

They could make me appear repeatedly.

They could consume my time.

They could test my patience.

But they couldn’t make me accept something I believed was untrue simply because fighting it was inconvenient.

Justice Delayed

People often repeat the phrase:

Justice delayed is justice denied.

After eighteen years, I understand why.

The process itself can become punishment.

No final outcome can return the time, anxiety or energy consumed along the way.

But there is another side to it.

Sometimes justice is delayed…

and yet truth simply refuses to die.

That is what I choose to take from these eighteen years.

And One Last Thought…

To the former partner who began this battle with intentions I will leave history to judge:

Eighteen years was a very long wait.

To those in the system who may have expected allegations to survive without the supporting material eventually being demanded:

Eighteen years was apparently still not long enough.

Because ultimately, somebody asked the simplest questions.

Where is the evidence?

And sometimes the most satisfying ending doesn’t require revenge, anger or even celebration.

It requires only a question that should perhaps have been asked much earlier.

The case is closed.

My life isn’t.

And after eighteen years, I finally get to walk forward without looking over my shoulder.

Some victories don’t need noise.

The silence after eighteen years is loud enough.

Somewhere Between Raising Kids and Growing Older, What Happened to Our Friendships?


I was thinking about some of my closest friends recently.

There was a time when we didn’t need a reason to call each other.

We knew what was happening in each other’s lives. We met regularly. Conversations could go on endlessly. And underneath all of that was a reassuring feeling:

If I needed them, they were there. And if they needed me, I was there.

Even ten years ago, many of us were still very much in touch.

Then something quietly changed.

Nobody Walked Away

There was no fight. No misunderstanding. Nobody decided that the friendship wasn’t important anymore.

We simply became busy living our lives.

Many of us had our children around the same period. First one, then the second.

Suddenly, weekends weren’t really ours.

School. Homework. Classes. Birthdays. Doctor visits. Family commitments. Careers. EMIs. Ageing parents. A hundred small responsibilities that somehow consume an entire day.

I can’t complain that my friends stopped calling.

I stopped calling too.

And somewhere along the way, people I once spoke to almost every day became people I might speak to once in a few months.

Meetings became rarer.

Sometimes a friend visits after a long time and we manage to meet — but only for 20 minutes before one of us has to rush back to another responsibility.

And we say the inevitable:

“Machi, next time we’ll sit properly.”

Then another year disappears.

And That Made Me Wonder…

I am 46 now.

If the last ten years changed our friendships this much, what will another ten years do?

Today we have children to take care of.

Ten years from now, we will be in our mid-50s.

Some friends are already living in different countries. Our children will be older and building lives of their own. We will have changed too.

Will we become close again?

Or will we become people who occasionally exchange birthday wishes and remember how close we used to be?

For some reason, that thought made me a little uncomfortable.

Then I started looking at it differently.

Maybe Friendship Has Its Own Seasons

Perhaps this isn’t something going wrong.

Perhaps this is simply how friendship travels with us through life.

In our 20s:
We have time, so we are always together.

In our 30s:
Life starts changing, but we are still strongly connected.

In our 40s:
We still love our friends, but everyone is overwhelmed with responsibilities.

In our 50s:
The children begin needing us less, and maybe we start asking: Who are the people I really want around me?

In our 60s:
Perhaps shared history becomes more valuable than almost anything else.

And suddenly I realised something.

At 46, maybe I am not witnessing the end of these friendships.

Maybe we are simply in their quiet middle chapter.

There Is Something Special About an Old Friend

You can meet an old friend after two years and, within ten minutes, somehow become 25 again.

The same jokes return. The same teasing returns. Stories that your family has heard a hundred times suddenly become funny again.

Because an old friend remembers a version of you that almost nobody in your present life knows.

They knew you before the grey hair. Before the responsibilities. Before the job titles, businesses, successes, failures, children and EMIs.

They remember your stupid decisions.

And unfortunately, they usually remember them in remarkable detail.

That kind of friendship is difficult to recreate at 46.

Maybe We Don’t Need to Become Close Like Before

I don’t think the answer is trying to recreate our 20s.

We can’t. And perhaps we shouldn’t.

Friendship at this age may simply mean sending a message for no particular reason.

A fifteen-minute phone call. A coffee whenever someone happens to be in town. An old photograph suddenly appearing in the WhatsApp group with:

“Dei, look at us!”

Nothing profound needs to be said.

Sometimes the message underneath all of it is simply:

I’m still here.

Don’t Wait for “Someday”

There is only one thing that worries me now.

We keep assuming there will be a better time.

After this project. After the kids’ exams. Next time I come to India. Next year.

But five years can quietly become ten.

And perhaps friendships don’t always end because something bad happened.

Sometimes they simply fade because everybody kept postponing the next conversation.

So I think I’ll make a little more effort.

Not to bring the old days back.

But to make sure the people who mattered in those days are still somewhere in the days ahead.

Because maybe the best ending to these friendships isn’t:

“We remained as close as we were when we were 25.”

Maybe it is something much more realistic — and much more beautiful:

We went to different cities. Some of us went to different countries. We raised our children. We built our lives. We became busy. We grew older.

We didn’t speak as often as we once did.

But somehow, we never lost each other.