Category: Personal

Live bloging from Pasha


Pasha is one place where I had only happy memories… In fact when I had to migrate to Madurai for a year this was the only place that I missed…

This is a place I went for bottom fishing & gained some business networks….

Am in this place after almost 2 years… A lot has changed since then like;

  • No party beyond 3 AM
  • Not a single old friend of mine is here
  • It is not a Jam packed crowd

Only difference is I entered as a stag this time…

And the only similarity is Anand Nataraj… He has never changed & still his hunt continues……………

Am missing Something


For last couple of days I’m into introspection mode… I don’t know what it is; but I always feel like missing something…

It all started the day when my parents asked me to delete the pictures of me having toddy…

So findings of my introspection is; I’ve not been doing my crazy things I use to do like;

  • Travelling
  • Watching Movies
  • Itz been a while since I drank like crazy & behaved crazy
  • Since I partied

Interestingly my parents are happy these days as I’m not going out & come home at odd hours & spending money. For them all above things are irresponsible behaviours…

So henceforth I’ve decided to take a Sabbatical for a week every month & go to Bangalore or Madurai to lead a life of my wish… Then be in Chennai & lead a life as per my parents wish…

Feeling’less Days


Last two days have been very dull in terms of personal feelings or emotions are concerned…

To my surprise I didn’t feel happy or excited or angry or confused or confident… I was neither feeling high nor down… I didn’t feel love / lust for pass bying girls… I didn’t think I laughed for a second in these two days…

I can’t remember if I had been thru such a phase in life before… Is this a part or sainthood??

But one thing is for sure… I’ve not travelled in these two days either on the correct side or on the wrong side…

I take this as two days of maintenance shut-down for my machine called Brain as it was hardly used in these two days…

Things l long to do


For long I wanted to be crazy & I had to compromise on that bulging down to criticism… Of late I’ve decided to live a life I like irrespective of criticism or encouragement I get… So these are things I longed to do;

  • Stay House Arrested for a month (Planning to do this May where I can cheat the heat)…
  • Travel a distance of 600 KM from Chennai without any money & return…
  • Sing on the streets & collect money… Just got linked with a guitarist friend who is ready to join… Need some more members in the team…
  • Watch 5 movies in a day & that too in a theatre… My max till date is 3 movies…
  • To shoot amateur movies

This list will expand & will complete half of this by the end of may…

Sleep is a Necessity Not a Luxury


I was following a disciplined routine until I was 18 where I use to sleep at 10 in the night & wake up by 6 in the morning…

This all changed when my passion to hack my newly brought Pentium100 during 1998… Buying a system was still a luxury… I use to work the whole night…

Then by 1999 I got internet connection at home & by this time my routine started to collapse… My sleeping hours started to shrink…

By 2000 I started my company and by now my working hours increased to 16 – 18 hours a day… My sleeping hours were between 2 – 3 hours a day… This is the number of hours I slept until 2009… I took pride in telling that I just slept for 2 – 3 hours a day…

But lack of sleep for almost a decade started to take its toll on my health…

For last 2 months I suffered from severe back pain because Muscle Spasm(Muscle Catch)… I was told it is mainly because of lack of sleep…

I was asked to do some stretch exercise & to sleep a lot… For last 2 weeks I’m sleeping for 8 – 10 hours a day… Now I don’t feel any pain in my back…

Today I drove to Bangalore & still feeling comfortable…

Now it is too late I realize the importance of sleep… These are some effects of sleep deprivation on me;

  • Severe indigestion
  • High Body Heat
  • Eye power increase & eye pain
  • Muscle Catch
  • Over eating

I’m struggling to bring in some discipline in my working hours & start taking care of my health as I’m not getting younger…

DMK AIADMK & I


I was 11 years old when JayaLalitha swept TN polls & she became the Chief Minister for the first time… She won because;

  • of publicising her saree removing episode in the assembly…
  • of the alliance with congress and gained the sympathy votes gained by Rajiv Gandhi’s assassination…

That was an age where I was not interested in politics & that would be the talk of the town…

JJ’s first tenure started when I was too young and ended when I was 16 & an age where I started following politics…

That was a rule filled with autocracy & corruption… The whole state was against her & year 1996 was an entertaining year…

  • It saw congress splitting in TN and Tamil Manila Congress emerged and allied with DMK…
  • Super Star RajiniKanth almost entered into politics…
  • Sun Tv emerged into prominence because of Sandlehood smuggler Veerappan…

All the above factors & anti-incubancy against JJ saw the end of her rule… Entire TN cherished & it was almost end of road for JJ…

Then 1996 was also a turning point for the state of TN… State was lagging behind other states & pro -capitalist DMK came to power both on the Centre with Third front & in the state…

Tamil Nadu saw true development in terms of infrastructure & with industries…

When left front collapsed in 2 years in centre… BJP lead NDA came to power & DMK right fully joins NDA…

Then everyone felt DMK would make it back… As JJ was facing corruption charges & still her autocratic rule was fresh in the mind… But there was an under-current which made all political observers wrong…

DMK collapsed & JJ returned to power… This time she did good governance with her autocratic attitude…

In between NDA collapsed in the centre during 2004 & DMK was prompt in changing alliance with Congress lead UPA and won all 40 parliamentary seats in TN & Puducherry…

Then came 2006 and people were applauding JJ’s rule & it was thought she will win… But DMK chief’s last minute promise of 1 KG rice for Re.1 clicked… Also it was perfectly timed & JJ couldn’t do much…

In spite she won 70 seats & DMK formed a government in spite of being a minority…

It was return of UPA for the second time… This 2 year rule is full of corruption & DMK minister was in the lime light of India’s biggest corruption till date… Also UPA 2 was filled with controversies like;

  • 2G Spectrum Scandal
  • Common Wealth Games Scandal
  • Appointment of Chief Vigilance Officer
  • Inflation

Now it is 2011 and the political scenario in TN is heated up… DMK has gone for polarisation politics & gave lavish numbers to number caste based parties… Their ugly quarrel with Congress happened in public & finally DMK bowed down…

As per vote share DMK is comfortable with 49% against AIADMK’s 41%… But DMK has to fight;

  • Anti-incubancy
  • 2G Spectrum Scam
  • Already fragile alliance with congress
  • Inflation
  • Monopoly & Domination of Real Estate, Media, Movies & Television
  • Groupism within the family

So far nothing is going right for DMK… Also seeing their feud with congress there can be post election alliance if there is a broken verdict…

Also DMK was in power in the Centre for last 15 years… May 13 should be an interesting day & it time to have fun…

Are we emotional idiots?


At least with me it is true… Being a person who has favoured DMK since my childhood; I decided to vote for AIADMK… Reason being too much domination of Karunanidhi’s family on almost every industry; particularly Movies, Real estate & Television…

Also the 2G spectrum scam added fuel to that fire…

I being educated & the ability to think fell prey for emotions…

Yes this current feud between DMK & Congress made me to sympathise DMK… For a moment anger against them became sympathy…

Only now I realize the importance of emotional voters whose mindset fluctuates & can change the game…

Faking Life


Yesterday I was getting repeated calls from my Mom & Dad… I’m missed picking their calls… It was something & they have never done like this before…

Then I reverted back to their call at late night… My dad picked the call in the very first ring & he started shouting at me for up loading photos of me drinking toddy…

He said he didn’t like me posting such pictures… He said for the position I’m holding I must not do such things…

Immediately several questions flashed my mind;

  • Why should I fake my Life & live a masked life…
  • If wine tasting is a festival culture; why can’t I enjoy tasting toddy

Since I didn’t want to let down my father I immediately agreed to delete the pictures…

But really I feel frustrated for bowing down to emotional pressure which arises out of societal pressure #sucks….

Being AnandNataraj


I’ve blogged about this often and I think I’ll be blogging about this topic in future too…. For those who keep reading about this often; please excuse me because I use my blog as a tool for expression…

It all started when I uploaded a bunch of pictures while consuming toddy…. Immediately I started getting advice from my friends to delete it or to make it visible only to certain friends…. Though they advised me as a well wisher…. I didn’t want to follow what they said…

So what are the effects of posting such a picture?

  • My image as a entrepreneur gets a beating…
  • My marriage could get affected because of this…

But if I start thinking about what people will think of me…. I’ll start leading a false life & over a point I might loose my Identity…. For me I want to me as open as possible…. Though I paid heavy prices for this openness I don’t want to change because of some bad experiences….

Though there might be certain hiccups initially once I become big acceptance will get bigger…. Some great personalities are;

  • Vijay Mallaya
  • Richard Branson

These people have shown me path for leading a life as we like and never bother about society or succumb to pressure it gives….

So what is Being AnandNataraj?

  • Someone who doesn’t bother about society and lives life for himself is Being AnandNataraj….
  • Someone who give damn for Privacy is Being AnandNataraj…
  • Someone who has the guts & fire on the a$$ is Being AnandNataraj….
  • Someone who thinks RISK & failure is a part of life is Being AnandNataraj….
  • Someone who is a Decision maker even it is right or wrong is Being AnandNataraj….
  • Someone who agrees his failures / mistakes / embarrassments is Being AnandNataraj….

Though it is hard for common people to accept me and my acts…. I’m happy Being AnandNataraj thought my actions leads to criticism, embarrassment etc.

 

Mistake made me feel great!!!


Yesterday while driving to office I got a call from the person who sold Hotel Accord Metropolitan membership to me… She wished me Happy Birthday & said one more celebrity was celebrating his birthday today and asked did I know who he is???

  • I said it was Shahid Kapoor & she said that was a news for her and she said it was someone else…
  • Then I said it was Premji Ameran & again she said it was a news to her and she said the person was different…

Since I ran out of options she said it was Gautham Vasudev Menon’s birthday too… That made me think more special as he is one of my favorite directors… She said he is also a privileged member like me & she said she has called me after wishing him… I was doubly thrilled to be a a part of a club which had such celebrities & my favorite director as a member…

Then she said there was a complementary cake offered as a gift from the Hotel… Since I was busy treating my folks I asked my office admin to collect the cake form the hotel… The packing was nice and I thought I must share this cake with my parents & sister as I didn’t offer them for my birthday…

When I reached home & opened the box I was in for a shock… I got the cake which was supposedly prepared for Gautam Vasudev Menon :)… Though the cake neither had my name nor the flavor I requested I didn’t get angry… Gautam must have got my cake and would have wondered who Anand Nataraj was?? I just realized that I must have registered my name as AnandNataraj.Com so that he could have at-least hit my blog ;)… Not sure how he reacted or felt about the mix up… I was happy & the cake was really delicious… Gautam was good even in selecting the flavors he choose :)…

This is what i got :)…