Today started with an early pick-up for an important meeting with Balaji at Kathipara Starbucks. The drive was a perfect blend of productive discussions and light-hearted moments, setting a positive tone for the day. We chatted about product plans, upcoming features, and even managed to squeeze in some humor. It was refreshing to connect on both a professional and personal level, making the ride as enjoyable as it was useful.
As we pulled into Starbucks, BT joined us right on time. The atmosphere was buzzing, and it set the stage for an effective and engaging meeting. We dived into preparing our roadmap and setting goals, mapping out the next steps for our product. There’s something about the mix of caffeine and creativity that always gets ideas flowing. By the time we wrapped up, I felt we had made significant progress—plans were laid out clearly, and objectives were set. It was one of those meetings that left me feeling motivated and focused.
With the meeting concluded, I drove back home, reflecting on the discussions and plans we had set. Once home, I allowed myself a quick nap—a much-needed recharge after a busy morning.
Later in the evening, I took some time for myself, heading out for a walk from 5 PM to 6:15 PM. It’s become a routine I look forward to, and today, I managed to hit my daily goal of 10,000 steps. Walking clears my mind, and it’s the perfect way to reset after a busy day. The satisfaction of completing my step goal adds to the sense of accomplishment.
From there, I drove to Maraimalai Nagar to finalize the rent agreement with the tenant. After a smooth signing process, I headed back home, satisfied with how efficiently the day had gone.
Now, as I sit down to write this entry, reflecting on the day, I realize it’s days like these—where work, personal errands, and health goals all come together—that keep me motivated. Each small task, from discussions over coffee to signing agreements, felt purposeful.
Tomorrow, I’ll take on new challenges, but for now, it’s time to call it a night.
Category: Personal
Sixteen Years Underground
In the early 2000s, I built a life from scratch, brick by brick, hour by hour.
While others partied and dreamed, I worked.
20-hour days. No shortcuts. No favours.
By 2004, the tide had turned in my favour.
I had a growing business.
I had a beautiful woman by my side.
I had the pride of building something real, something enviable.
From the outside, life looked perfect.
Inside, I felt invincible.
Then came the collapse.
In 2008, the two people I trusted most, my partner and my lover — destroyed me.
Their affair wasn’t just a personal betrayal; it was surgical.
They pushed me out of the very company I had built.
Overnight, I lost my wealth, my name, my identity, my peace.
I was cast out! while they wore my success like a crown.
What followed wasn’t drama. It was silence.
The kind of silence where you scream, but no one hears.
Friends disappeared. Society judged.
I was labelled the loser. The discarded one.
They said he was the brain. That I was a fluke.
But I endured.
Every single day.
With nothing but grit, and a memory of what I once was.
I watched them from a distance.
Their lives looked glittering with new homes, vacations, laughter.
But time has its own justice.
A decade later, the cracks appeared.
The marriage fell apart.
The money dried up.
He spiraled into addiction.
She into loneliness.
While they scattered, I stayed still.
I had nothing left to lose and everything to rebuild.
Now, nineteen years later, I am stepping out.
Not just into light.
Into freedom.
Into peace.
I am no longer the man who lost everything.
I am the man who survived everything.
Some journeys don’t need a crowd. Just courage, time, and a quiet fire inside.
Life of Anand
Fun with friends is his daily bread,
With jokes and tales, his heart is fed.
He’s always up for an adventure,
To explore the world with pure pleasure.
But his heart’s been broken once or twice,
In struggles with relationships, he paid the price.
But he picks himself up and moves on,
To find new love and write a new song.
Blogging is his passion and his muse,
With each new post, he lights a fuse.
He shares his thoughts and experiences,
To motivate and inspire, he never misses.
An entrepreneur at heart, he takes a chance,
To create a business, to take a stance.
He experiments and tries new things,
To build his empire, to spread his wings.
Long drives are his escape from the grind,
On the open road, his soul unwinds.
With the wind in his hair and the sun on his face,
He finds solace and peace in this open space.
Anand’s life is full of ups and downs,
But he never loses his smile or his crown.
With his friends by his side and his dreams in sight,
He’ll live his life with all his might.
Love and Fear: The Battle Within a Coward’s Heart
As a coward, expressing love can be an extremely difficult task. Love requires vulnerability and courage, both of which can be very intimidating for someone who is naturally inclined towards fear and avoidance. It’s not that cowards are incapable of feeling love; it’s just that they struggle to express it in the way that they want to.
For me, expressing love has always been a daunting prospect. I have always been afraid of rejection and the potential for hurt that comes with putting oneself out there. As a result, I have often found myself holding back my feelings, afraid of what might happen if I were to reveal them. This has caused me a great deal of pain over the years, as I have watched opportunities for love slip away because I was too afraid to take the risk.
It’s not that I don’t feel love deeply. I do, and it’s a wonderful feeling. The problem is that my fear of rejection and my tendency to avoid confrontation make it difficult for me to express that love in a way that feels authentic and meaningful. Instead, I find myself resorting to small gestures and platitudes, hoping that they will be enough to convey what I am feeling.
Unquenchable Desires: Navigating the Joy and Pain of Love
Love is a powerful emotion that can make us feel both joy and pain. It can be difficult to express our feelings to someone, especially if we fear rejection. When unquenchable desires keep appearing, they can pierce our hearts and leave us feeling scared and vulnerable.
For me, expressing my love is like walking on a tightrope. It takes courage and a leap of faith to tell someone how I feel, but the fear of rejection can be paralyzing. I stir her name every day in my soul, but the trial she walks is like a shadow that I can never catch.
The hesitation in expressing my love is like a heavy weight on my chest. It’s as if I’m constantly holding my breath, waiting for the right moment to exhale. But the longer I wait, the harder it becomes. The dumbness and infatuation are like two halves that keep killing me every day.
One can only appreciate the joy in life after enduring sorrow!
Life is a journey filled with ups and downs, and at times, it can be difficult to see the good in the midst of the bad. We all experience challenges, pain, and suffering at some point in our lives, and it’s natural to feel overwhelmed, discouraged, or even hopeless during those times.
However, as the saying goes, “it is often said that one can only appreciate the joy in life after enduring sorrow.” In this blog, we will explore the meaning behind this statement and why it holds true for many of us.
Sorrow is a natural part of the human experience. It comes in many forms, such as the loss of a loved one, a relationship ending, a job loss, or even a health issue. No matter the cause, sorrow can leave us feeling broken and defeated, like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. However, it is through these difficult times that we are often able to grow and develop a deeper appreciation for the good things in life.
When we experience sorrow, it can be easy to get lost in our own pain and despair. But as time goes on, we may start to see glimpses of hope and joy. Perhaps it’s a beautiful sunset that we notice on our way home from work, the laughter of a friend during a phone call, or a kind gesture from a stranger. These small moments of light can shine brighter in the midst of our darkness, and help us to appreciate the beauty of life in a new way.
Enduring sorrow can also teach us important lessons about ourselves and the world around us. We may learn about our own resilience, strength, and capacity for empathy and compassion. We may gain a deeper understanding of the struggles that others face and become more compassionate and kind as a result. Through our own pain and suffering, we may also be inspired to help others who are going through similar experiences.
Last but not least, the saying that “one can only appreciate the joy in life after enduring sorrow” holds true for many of us. Enduring sorrow can be a difficult and painful experience, but it can also lead to growth, empathy, and a deeper appreciation for the good things in life. By recognizing and embracing the lessons we learn during difficult times, we can find strength and hope to move forward, and ultimately, experience the joy that life has to offer
Understanding and Overcoming Loneliness
Loneliness is a common human emotion that can affect us all at some point in our lives. It can be a challenging feeling to deal with, especially when it persists for a prolonged period. The feeling of being lonely is not just limited to being physically alone but can also arise even in the presence of others.
It is essential to understand that loneliness is not a sign of weakness, but rather a natural human emotion that needs to be addressed. If you’re feeling lonely, it’s important to take the necessary steps to overcome it.
The first step in dealing with loneliness is to acknowledge it. It’s okay to admit that you’re feeling lonely and that you need help. Once you’ve recognized your loneliness, you can take the necessary steps to address it.
One way to combat loneliness is to focus on yourself. Take time to engage in activities that make you happy, such as reading a book, taking a walk, or practicing a hobby. Self-care is essential in combating loneliness, and it’s important to prioritize your well-being.
If you’re struggling with loneliness, it’s important to remember that you’re not alone. Many people experience loneliness at some point in their lives, and there is always help available.
In conclusion, loneliness is a challenging emotion to deal with, but it’s essential to recognize it and take the necessary steps to overcome it. By connecting with others and focusing on yourself, you can combat loneliness and live a more fulfilling life.
Learning to Cope with the Hard Reality of Lost Friendships
I can relate to the quote ‘Lonely I’m soo lonely, I’ve no buddy on my own’ as it resonates with my current situation. Since childhood, I had a large group of friends, and I made sure to stay in touch with them regularly, expanding my social circle as I grew older.
However, over the past few years, I have lost almost all of my friends. Some friendships ended because I borrowed money from them, creating a rift between us. In other cases, I lent money to friends, and when I needed help, they were unable to support me, causing the relationship to crumble.
During a difficult time, I noticed a change in their behavior towards me, and many of them stopped talking to me without any explanation. It’s a tough realization, but I understand now that no relationship is guaranteed to last forever.
I am doing my best to accept this new reality and come to terms with the hard truth of relationships.
When Help Comes with a Cost
There’s no denying that receiving help from someone who genuinely cares about you is a wonderful feeling. It can give you a sense of security and comfort knowing that you have someone you can turn to when you need it the most. However, what happens when that help comes with a cost?
When someone offers you help, it’s natural to assume that they have your best interests at heart. However, what if that help comes with unsolicited advice, constant nagging, and a complete disregard for your boundaries? What do you do then?
It’s easy to feel trapped in a situation like this, especially when the person helping you has been a lifeline during your time of need. But, it’s important to remember that just because someone helps you, it doesn’t give them the right to overstep your boundaries or ignore your wishes.
Setting boundaries with someone who has helped you can be challenging. The first step is to recognize that you have the right to set boundaries and that it’s essential for your mental health and well-being. If someone is making you feel uncomfortable or is causing you distress, it’s important to communicate that to them in a respectful manner.
However, sometimes, despite our best efforts, the other person may not be willing to listen. In situations like these, it’s essential to seek outside help. Talk to a trusted friend who can offer you guidance and support.
Last but not least, receiving help from someone is a beautiful thing, but it should never come with a price. It’s essential to recognize your boundaries and communicate them effectively to the person helping you. If they continue to ignore your boundaries despite your efforts, it’s important to seek outside help. Always remember that you have the right to live your life on your terms, and no one has the right to take that away from you.
The Fine Line Between Freedom and Loneliness
The question of whether being alone is freedom or loneliness is a complex and highly debated topic. On the one hand, being alone can be seen as a form of freedom, as it allows one to live life on their own terms and pursue their own interests without the constraints of others. On the other hand, being alone can also be seen as loneliness, a state of isolation and disconnection from others that can lead to feelings of sadness and despair.
At first glance, it may seem like the two concepts are at odds with each other. After all, freedom implies independence, while loneliness suggests a lack of connection. However, the reality is that the two are often intertwined, and the relationship between them is far more nuanced than it might seem.
On one hand, the freedom of being alone can be incredibly empowering. When we are free to do what we want, without anyone else’s input or interference, we are able to truly explore our passions and pursue our dreams. We can set our own schedules, make our own decisions, and live our lives in a way that feels most authentic to us.
However, this freedom can also be isolating. When we are alone, we don’t have anyone to share our experiences with, and we may feel like nobody cares about us or what we’re doing. We may feel like we are missing out on the joys of human connection, and that our lives lack the depth and richness that comes from being part of a community.
Ultimately, whether being alone is freedom or loneliness depends largely on our own perceptions and attitudes. If we approach our alone time with a sense of purpose and self-awareness, viewing it as an opportunity to grow and explore our passions, then it can be a powerful form of freedom. But if we approach it with a sense of isolation and disconnection, seeing it as a punishment or a burden, then it can quickly become a source of loneliness and despair.
In conclusion, the question of whether being alone is freedom or loneliness is a deeply personal one that is largely determined by our perceptions and attitudes. Ultimately, the key to finding true freedom in solitude is to approach it with a sense of purpose and self-awareness, recognizing the value of our own company and the opportunities that come with being able to live life on our terms
AnandNataraj 