What happened to my BLOGGING??


Once blogging use to be a habit without which I couldn’t close my day!! It was real hard practice, perceivarance and discipline which helped to make it a habit!!! Over all this habit helped me in;

  • Improving my communication skills!!
  • Improved my vocabulary!!!
  • Expressing my thoughts!!
  • Documenting my daily life!!
  • Experiencing Challenges!!
  • Getting New Friends!!
  • Becoming Open & Transparent!!
  • Venting out frustration!!

As days passed this habit slowly became an addiction!!! This addiction made;

  • Me stretch my day to finish my blog post!!
  • Me depressed if I fail to make a blog post!!
  • Me do unwanted things to make a blog post!!
  • Me too transparent and open person!!
  • Me loose my reputation sometimes!!

In spite of all those negatives it helped me feel free and expose my rightful image. I was able to move without carrying any burden on my shoulder!!! 

But I wanted to stop blogging for some time because I thought that I should not get addicted to anything or do anything because of addiction!! So, I voluntarily stopped blogging for some time!!

By the time I got convinced that I was de-addicted and ready to start my blogging I got married.. Then on I couldn’t be the same transparent and open person.. There were things which my wife couldn’t tolerate and accept.. I had to hide things to her in order to avoid hurting her.. I fell into the trap of mediocrity!! So, I couldn’t blog any longer 😦

Frankly I do not want to show prejudice between my wife and parents.. I want to be the same transparent person the way I did with my parents..

Today while I was driving back alone from my wife’s native to Madurai I was thinking;

  • Why I stopped blogging for marriage?? 
  • Was I right or wrong in doing so??

Then I realised that the relationship and bond we carry with our parents are naturally stiched and we dare to take it for granted.. But with marriage we are building a bond which has to carefully crafted and stiched!!

I feel it was better sacrifice to hold my blog and my natural trait for the sake of building a relationship!! 

Not sure how far we have crossed as a couple and the depth in our bond??

Should I start Blogging or Wait for some more time??

Just want to try it out with small doses 🙂

Hope Yamuna reads this blog sometime or some day and makes a comment 🙂

Moving with Faith & Determination


I’ve always seen GOD to be crazy as he has given many parameter of experience like happiness, sadness, anger, anxiety, loneliness, relationships, separation, laziness, pain and a lot more…

We are all happy when we FLY GOOD TIMES and mostly when we run through tough most people break some fight it out…

I first had my experience of breakup, backstabbing, losing wealth, dreams shattered and castle broken a couple of years back… My mind was filled with lots of unanswerable questions, unacceptable and dreaming for a miracle…

It took a lot of time for me to understand the reality and come to terms… Slowly I came across a world of experience which I wouldn’t have unless I’ve faced a tough reality….

This experience was on my capacity and I managed to overcome it…

Now god has put me on to the next phase of challenge where I’ve to win my father back, give strength to my mother, motivate my sister, calling (showing) my love to my wife and of course managing professional commitments…

First time god helped me get a trait of gaining self-confidence and a skill of independently handling turbulence…

This time it is managing emotions and managing a team… I keep running with this FAITH;

FAITH is seeing light with your heart when all your eyes sees us darkness…

Last two weeks have shown me how to handle life when it is beyond our control… I did get down on my morals sometimes… But now I started seeing the future where I can motivate a lot depressed people…

I see the future where I’m going to take care of my DAD like how he care-took me…

Prayers and showing more trust on god will definitely pay back….

Victory is always possible for the person who refuses to stop fighting…

What Stopped When I Stopped BLOGGING!!!


I had to take a break from Blogging for policing from Parents and Relatives… Yesterday I just realised how that break affected my personality alltogether…

  • When I blogged I enjoyed all the challenges, struggles and pains… These days I’ve become a angry and depressed….
  • When I blogged I use to observe all the small things that happens around me…  I missed to see a lot of good things around me these days….
  • When I blogged I’ve never been into boredom…. Blogging made me engaged all the times…
  • When I blogged I developed lots of hobbies…. I became a foodie, traveller, photographer, gardener etc…
  • When I blogged my vocabulary improved… I used to write all the new words I’ve come across…
  • When I blogged I was able to flush all the anger, agony and frustration… Off late my frustration levels are high…
  • When I blogged I used to read a lot… My reading habit has almost become defunct….
  • When I blogged I had the habit of sharing and compromising…. These days I’m getting selfish and self-centered…
  • When I blogged I learned from my mistakes… Not sure if I’m wise these days…
  • When I blogged I got lots of well washers like friends, relatives and unknown acquaintance… My friend base is stagnant these days…

Overall I’ve lost too meant things than I gained…

From Zero to Thirty


When every i come across places, people or situation it takes me back to the memory lane and these days it is happening too often… So i wanted to see how good i remember things that happened all these years year wise;

1980 : Couldn’t remember much. But it is a special year because that was the year i was born.

1981 : Couldn’t remember anything.

1982 : Vaguely remember walking with my grandpa’s & running round my granny’s house.

1983 : Remember vaguely about the beginning of my schooling & how my mom use to pick me after school hours.

1984 : Same like 1983. But I lost my Father’s father. I lost him at a very young age but I was his favorite. Miss him a lot.

1985 : This time i remember i was in class I and i was changed school after a 3 months in my old school. As a kid it was a the first time i was made to adapt change where culture, people & process everything were different. Since was too small I quickly adapted to the change.

1986 : A very special year. I got a cute little sister who has been my strength till days. We moved to our own house far from my school. Enjoyed going gardening with my mother. My Father use to drop me in school in the morning & my Mom’s father use to pick and drop me from school.

1987 : Lost my Mom’s father. We had to come back to grandma’s home to be with her. Again it was back to the place where I was born.

1988 : Came back to our house at Porur. Again my father use to drop me in school & his colleague will pick me from school. I leave home by 7.30 AM & come back home by 5.30 PM. Too much of a kill for a 8 year old.

1989 : Changed school which is less than a kilo-meter from my house. Got a class mate who was my neighbor Mr.Balaji & I was at cloud 9 as I’ve always studied is school where I didn’t have a class mate to access. In my old school mates use to meet and play at each others home during weekends and my chance came only during this Year.

1990 : Changed another school & I owe full credits to this school for what I’m today A.V.Meiyappan Matriculation Higher Secondary School. My responsibility started here. Use to take my sister for lunch & bring her back to home from School. For the first time I was exposed to football.

1991 : Started a Cricket team in my area.

1992 : Started becoming independent as I started visiting friends who are far from my house. This is the time where studies have started to become a burden on me.

1993 : My father went abroad and started getting lots of new gadgets. Use to play more & yell at studies. Golden year in my sporing career was a de-facto brand for my school. The year marked the beginning lying parents & going to movies with friends.

1994 : Failed in class IX in spite of excelling in sports. That marked the end of my short sporting career. Had to switch school in order to save a year and joined class X. This year was very special because I studied in a school for 3 months and again changed school. This time was the the beginning of golden period in my life. I was the Don in the making & my dream then was to become a big Don. Bunked school to watch movies & stole money from home to watch movies.

1995 : Somehow passed my SSLC (Class X) & rejoined my favorite school AVM. This period was full of studies.

1996 : Again studies was my priority.

1997 : Joined college. Again the start of my second golden period. Went to Bangalore for the first time. For the first time saw girls smoking, roaming with guys & sew a lot o girls drinking. Climate was awesome. Loved this place & even thought of settling there those days.

1998 : Golden period at the peak. Exposed to internet & didn’t realize that this is going change my life for ever. Visiting Bangalore was a routine. My familiarity with Bangalore was mainly because of roaming with my fathers colleagues those days.

1999 : Continued with my golden period. For the first time started doing my own petty jobs.

2000 : College life ended. Started my first Company.

2001 : Struggled & cracked the way to hunt for projects.

2002 : Special year because Business grew, Moved to own office & was the golden period of my Entrepreneur days.

2003 : Start of getting exposed to People problem & for the first time started facing turbulence.

2004 : Attrition was at its peak. Took some gamble of moving to a Cozy office by over-stepping. The move clicked. Got a good friend Mr.Major Karthik (Who has been my strength till date.).

2005 : Beginning of bringing structure into the company. Got a special companion who & was flying high.

2006 : Joined MBA @ Great Lakes Institute of Management & I consider this to the the best choice & investment (I paid my fee for the first time) i’ve ever made. GLIM gave me enlightenment & gave me lot of answers. I transformed from a Blind Entrepreneur to an Entrepreneur with Vision.

2007 : Good business, Good Friends, a Companion and I thought life was settled.

2008 : The year of biggest Turbulence. One fine day I lose most of the thing which made me think I was settled. That is when I came to know True & Fake friends. Major Karthik, Balaji & Bala Murugan were people who Stood by me during those days. Today I’m thankful to god because i felt i was a failure & my life has come to an end. Today i realize with all these friends i can conquer the world. Started Cogzidel this year.

2009 : Developed new hobbies & experimented things I wanted to do. Life has become more meaningful. Got a lot of new friends who filled the Gap for the lost ones.

2010 : I turned 30. Can’t think how days have ran like a jiffy. Particularly from 1994 – 2010. Everything looks like it happened yesterday & it looks like it all ran within minutes.

Over all I must thank God for giving me good & bad experience witch all made me only strong. When I look back all bad / sad situation stood for a better / good future. Let me run couple of more years and will share my new experience and let this blog be a document for my future reference to enrich my mind with the memories of past.

Cogzidel Technologies Office Warming Experience


We always learn from past mistakes. We took lot of lessons from Office Warming Experience of CCS which happened by September’09. So this is how it happened and how we were tangled into a new mess;

  • Kept all the Pooja things in office the previous evening.
  • Kept a key with me as last time we all reached office and we had to wait for a person to come and open the office and it got delayed.
  • The morning woke up took my bath and went to office as second person by 4.25 AM following the priest who came by 4 AM.
  • To our surprise there was a grill gate for which i didn’t have the keys.
  • Had to call the responsible person and falling prey to my parents piece of mind.
  • Had to hammer and break the lock.
  • Then things started after a delay of one hour.
  • Then folks like Kannan, Bala, Vimala & Boopathi joined.

Overall what ever things we learn from experience there are always new things that happens unexpected. Finally everything went fine and we started operations of Cogzidel Technologies Pvt. Ltd. Chennai.

Bad Things Happen at Same Time


In tamil there is a saying “Patta Kal-liyae Padum Sutta Kai-liae Sudum” (meaning “Hit legs gets re-hittem & Burned hands gets Burned again”). Like that saying lot of challenging things happened to me at the same time. Last week i went out on two day spiritual vacation where in i visited 6 temples in 2 days. After reaching home i wanted to blog the experience and sadly;

  • Internet was not working & in spite of giving repeated complaint’s nothing is happening.
  • When i thought of using Data Card it didn’t work. Reason “Payment not paid” & thanks to my memory power.
  • I settle all my bills online because there was no net i as unable to make payments and i delayed couple of payments from card to data card to insurance policy payment.
  • I was unable to come to office as it was Christmas Holiday and also i was tired of driving continuously for 2 days.

The worst is not over. For christmas i got an invitation from a celebrity friend to attend a charity function at Green Park Hotel, Vadapalani. Everything went well until i met someone who is a pain in my a$$ and things turned topsy turvy that night and i fell ill on saturday and unable to reach office on Saturday.

Then Sunday there was a surprise birthday party of my friend organized by her fiancee. Again i was unable to blog the experience because of internet problem at home. Finally i checked all my mails today after a gap of 6 days. I think this must be the longest gap for not using internet in my entrepreneurial life.

Now i feel relaxed to post this blog and i’ve got to post couple of more pending blogs to be posted.

The Proposal


propose-leap-year_6_444354aOne of my good friend called me and said he has got two proposals. He was happy that a girl proposed him and I was happier than him because I had good reason to ask him a treat. So today we went out for a movie and I thought it would apt to take him to the movie The Proposal.

I don’t want to talk more about that because it is someone’s personal and I didn’t get my friends permission to post even a bit of information he shared him (anyways pal if you read this blog don’t get hot because I didn’t specify your name :d).

Now I’m thinking how it would be if as girl has proposed me. Unfortunately not a single girl proposed me till date and not sure if I’d get that opportunity. I’m sure I’d have cherished if I had such an experience.

Thought I’ve approached girls for date and been successful couple of occasions I still envy people who got proposal from girls and strive to under go the experience.

Anyways let me not leave hope and keep my fingers crossed and wait for the lucky girl.

This is how business works


It is the month of June, on the shores of the Black Sea , it is raining, and the little town looks totally deserted. It is tough times, everybody is in debt, and everybody lives on credit.

Suddenly, a rich tourist comes to town. He enters the only hotel, lays a 100 Euro note on the reception counter, and goes to inspect the rooms upstairs in order to pick one.

The hotel proprietor takes the 100 Euro note and runs to pay his debt to the butcher.

The Butcher takes the 100 Euro note, and runs to pay his debt to the pig grower.

The pig grower takes the 100 Euro note, and runs to pay his debt to the supplier of his feed and fuel.

The supplier of feed and fuel takes the 100 Euro note and runs to pay his debt to the town’s prostitute that in these hard times, gave her services on credit.

The hooker runs to the hotel, and pays off her debt with the 100 Euro note to the hotel proprietor to pay for the rooms that she rented when she brought her clients there.

The hotel proprietor then lays the 100 Euro note back on the counter so that the rich tourist will not suspect anything.

At that moment, the rich tourist comes down after inspecting the rooms, and takes his 100 Euro note, after saying that he d id not like any of the rooms, and leaves town.

No one earned anything. However, the whole town is now without debt, and looks to the future with a lot of optimism.

And that, ladies and gentlemen, is how the business is today…..